so have to act like she's going into nursing home it is what she is doing im sure and not caring about me period whether I'm homeless again because of her or sick mentally very bad and physically well I'm not living this room period I will die in this room period back up is little shed house and pop up tent. so she can go to nursing home but I'm done completely she has taking about everything from me no way for a job gone hours she throws away my stuff can't date either throw away my stuff and who knows what else she wasn't a great mom pretty not so good mom didn't teach me good mom ways so had to give my daughter to her father and whoever he is with don't get me started on the dad either he was worse wanted the son more and disregarded me no matter what but never his son no matter what he did. as I just wanted wanted to be loved and treated same way but wasn't so guess could say I have daddy issues I daterd men before in low 60 area guess was looking for that father figure I didn't have. the only family that never treated me like I didn't matter was my nanny she always treated me I did matter and always showed me love and unconditionally not like parents I had if want to call them that they were conditions for love and care to receive cause look if I don't do store and get food she wants and eats then it's talking about nursing home again well go but I'm staying in this house even if I have to turn everything off cause can't pay it I will I am going to have shelter im not going to be homeless again period and I see about selling house and things in it . best for me to do and is pretty sad is ignore her detach silent and I let go and give it all to God period. I'm not leaving here until I die it's my house and little house shed. you can go to nursing home but I'm staying she has caused me to be homeless twice she taking away from me to have a job a relationship anything that doesn't involve her cause she was going to nursing home cause she was lonely well she still going to be cause I wont nothing to do with this person who isn't actions of a mother it's actions of devil ways and I'm done I cannot hear well now or see well and I'm older now near 60 and she doesn't seem to care she wants to be cared for then go to nursing home but I will not leave this I will stay and sell it not ending up homeless again too physically and mentally sick to go through that again. not only that she has changed the will at least 2 or 3 times and left me off of it even if I went she still left me off of it but put son on it whether she has no relationship doesn't matter and I have to be here to be on it. I'm tired I'll and just dont want anything but to die on my terms not out somewhere homeless God led me back here not myself to do so. I was running out of money no car no job no relationship no nothing so I came back because of my room little house and somewhat den area not for her. she has caused quite a bit bad things that have happened to me I don't trust or believe anything she says and I will stay in my room later and in den around 6 or 7 or 5pm the best for me is to avoid her and hopefully I will die soon from this depression that is eating me up inside and physically sick with virus I've had forever from being homeless before and not doing that again so you can go to nursing home but I will not leave this room unless I'm dead period