she seems biological mother goes to the closet alot or she whispers on phone or in her room or house about me to her brother and his wife I'm not the one that eats all the food that's why I still have food she doesn't if so he doesn't get what she wants she tries to make that was suffering or hurt or mean to but I give it to God all of it especially this will situation i feel ill be left with nothing I don't know if get this house or my part ml account and life insurance I guess I'll be surprised because she's been a liar lately mean and not understanding or care or compassionate I don't have to eat 3 meals a day I'm good with just one or drinks I'm leaning all on God to handle her idk what I can do food stamps is 17th of each month I'm doing nothing wrong I'm doing what iam supposed to do. and I. not going to feel guilty or bad for not ordering food ahead of 17th of each month is what it is especially when I'm dealing with severe mental and physical issues I can't take care completely someone else and I get food I eat cause only one meal a day or nothing I've done that alot lately and throwing away food she has done for a while before isn't helpful or good when homeless people beg And search for food and someone like her throwing it away just really bad i don't feel bad that I'm not ordering any food till 17th she can get someone else to or wait 17th eat what we have and be glad we have that I give all of these issues with her and the not close anymore relationship to God especially too there's no documents I see that says i get75 percent of ml account and old will says I'm getting estate not sure if that is even correct and life insurance too I'm not sure so that's why Iwant to die first but God keeps stopping that so I just put this issue and any other problem I'm dealing with to God all of it