isnt she suppossed to go to dental appointment today and her store her food 3 meals a day I either eat one or just drinks. I started yesterday as still punishing myself throwing my food up or not eating which I will go back on this week. I'm doing everything I know could do to die before her but for some reason God wants me still alive. well then why is she still alive. she doesn't fix bathroom and she doesn't care that I really don't eat cause I throw it up because it is the evil the suffering and pain I've been going through where I just don't care period maybe the bathroom being disgusting and smell of urine bad and broken toilet and bath tub clogged i told her about this some mom right and she just lets it be maybe I'll die from that yuck from her she has been so evil and mean cruel and just doesn't care she has no clue about going through homeless that I went through for 2 months because of her I will not again it's here or my little shed house. I thought she's going to dentist today. if she could go through 2 months homeless maybe God should would be kinder and understanding and caring better person and a mother which you would do that says that sometimes you put people in difficult situations like that to change how they are being especially to a family member that she decided to have and not abort or adoption. what else now no bathroom fixed what now still no food and no temperature maybe it's another day Thurs and nothing is changing same thing different day what else she going to do take away spectrum tv or 100 dollars checks a month I wouldn't be surprised well if so I guess death will be in my room due to the cruelty of what she has done to me I wish she would be her time to go Lord because she isn't doing anything to repair this no relationship just a biological mother or even better please take me I just don't understand how a mother and father still care and talk and love their children even if murder rapist or other bad things but me I don't get any kind of caring love helpful understanding anything just for me to be in my own space away from evil and now can't really hear now or talk because of the pain and suffering I have or am dealing with everyday