I just prefer the silence the detaching and to be alone it seems fake the things she said acts like I don't know it's up to God to handle it if she goes to nursing home and what happens to me do I still can be in my little house shed or do I have to be in a camping situation in woods in my pop up tent and possibly a chair blankets and pillows.wont be great in bad weather like rain or snow or thunder storms or whatever. I feel. like it's best for me to be alone here waiting to die peacefully where I'll have no more pain hurt suffering fake phony family if wanna call that as it is. only thing jp cares about is and it seems food and water already looking like she's trying to drink all waters before 8/17 that is why I took them to my room cause I live off mainly liquids and water is partly for that.