here I am again journaling trying to hang on and survive like God says but over and over gets worse everyday and night sick very mentally and physically how long am I supposed to suffer when you saw what this so called biological mother has caused me and. devilious ways of manipulation and emotional abuse knowing how I feel about 2 evil family members of hers and CP who reminds me of dad and what he put me through in showing favorites to his son. where do I go if those 3 come over here it's enough staying away from jp detach silent no reaction numb walk away go walking or put headphones in so don't hear anything period. she's the one why she doesn't have food not me cause I eat one meal a day . I would prefer to be left alone don't bother me or go in den and you do what is owed to me for being in this world and so called family and for her causing me homeless situations for 2 months or 1 and a half. why is she still here God sorry but what's shes put me through it's surprising she's still here. and her 2 family members why are they here. I question everyday why am I still here with the bad elements I have. don't talk to me don't bother me I need peace till death.