who knows sounds fishy but whatever just stay in my room longer and no eat or drink for Saturday to Saturday hopefully die then can only hope over and over with them she can do whatever with them but I want nothing to do with them or jp I'm being punished and judged and what they don't know is I don't care about any of them or really anything I'm done doing anything I just don't know what God won't let me go and die it's too much no money no nothing family friends job a relationship nothing I'm tired of just surviving. surviving here and out surviving camping it's a lot who knows I think it's better to be silent ignore and detach. wish would have died sooner she just doesn't want me dying at home ha maybe. will see after dealing with this it's nice easy the silence and detach but that's what I'm going to do if she wants food get it yourself I'm done cause I don't want to anymore eat or anything just sleep and wait for death it's all I want I wont have to stick around and deal with anything like you gets what in will they comig here especially for her stupid groceries where she drinks most of water and seems like food too I just going to stay in bed all day tomorrow no food or drink just leave me be I think she has done enough I can't talk loud right now she just came out of her room she might here me I don't care I know it's about me you centered on me to judge and punish me but can't cause I'm punishing myself the most