well here I am again still alive but very weak, I'll and Dont want to still be alive but here I am because God for some reason wants me still here.either this Friday or 1st of next week get 4 or 5 sleeping pills shampoo and lotion maybe drinks and ice creamtoo 2 separate orders just the cheapest shampoo and lotion and sleeping pills then maybe Mon or Tues next week would be my drinks and ice cream and possibly cheeses very very cheap orders I cannot even get out of bed my arthritis in knees back and body aches all over making it hard to im not sure too about financial part of mother's will at Merrill Lynch. cause DF LG and BG have all called me unstable thief and a cohersing person which only one is correct the unstable part because of severe bipolar depression and I don't know why does mother have to continue to be in den all the time it's like I don't get alone or private time if I do not get food stamps for August then will just do liquids if I do it would be cheapest and just for me. hopefully the financial will with ML is me 75 and other 25 will make sure it is before passes if I am still here.