seems shes all over place at times like thinking this is March when it's July just not great sometimes I'm not sure if she ate or showered I think so but not sure cause I cannot really take care of me cause I stay sick so it's hard to take care of someone else don't think I can oh well hopefully I get food stamps in Aug but if not I can then do fasting just have liquids. I cannot keep up with here making sure she showers and eats etc I don't know I thought she did but not sure I only ate one meal with a milkshake just do not want gl and BG ever back here again that caused enough but with the silence and detaching I learned from motivational speakers it helps some so far trying to keep that up just will be hard if she wants to go to nursing home before passes not want hospice or pass at home that puts me to be homeless again chance and sell the house not sure about where I would be going except I guedd little shed house it is mine period . hopefully I'll be dead before her that's my hope who knows guess would just survive hopefully God will take care of me I have leaned on him constantly