i feel lost confused unsure betrayed neglected manipulated from a person one person I thought would never hurt me cause me severe pain but the so called biological mom so so evil with her 2 just as evil or more I don't like any of them why did she even have to give birth to me when she was just going to do this to me why does she still have to be here and not nanny she silence but that seems to be sneaky evil I can't sleep or eat I have no energy I just don't want to keep doing this over and over and over again. especially with a person like her I can't even look at her or anything I'll just I guess continue to ignore and detach and silent it's the only thing that seems to work. I have my little house to sit in when it is fall and cooler I have my room it's all I need not picky to someone who's really sick mentally and physically that's all I need guess I'll continue to pretend she isn't here. I wouldn't be surprised if she sneaks and put the will a new one somewhere else where I get nothing who would have thought she would do all this to me she doesn't care that I'm hurting and just trying to survive and hold on and I just can't. barely make it. so if don't get food stamps then guess just go back to liquids period. she should and better at least after ruining my so called life the 100 dollars check to write on 7/17 date and so forth till I die or she dies it's all I want from her period. maybe soon I will die and not make it I can only hope it's hard dealing mentally and physically pain. I'm so numb I cannot cry anymore it's I feel dead inside empty.