here I am again don't know why but apparently God wants me here I seem to have is suffering mentally severe and physically can't eat or sleep very well I feel like I have to keep fighting surviving what for and battle devil actions from biological mother and 2 people I don't consider family they are hers but not mine I've detached from that still remain silent and detached especially to the biological mother I don't trust her at all and never will again after what she put me through about her will and ml account and life insurance not sure if all that still good or not and fact when she passes away I probably won't receive anything maybe life insurance not sure or guaranteed cause she changed it so many times to pain me and having to try to find jobs and suffer all over again and I resent her still for not letting me have a chance in life cause if I'm away from the house long periods of time she throws my belongings away food and drinks too and I need all stuff in my room and refrigerator so I have detached and remain silent and let God handle this and those 3 who either have ruined my life and probably when they pass still ruined cause she lies s lot and other 2 probably would try to prevent me from getting anything cause they want to punish me and make me suffer and homeless again which to me that aren't family in my eyes they are hers that's funny cause before jp said she hated LG and didn't like either then she switches to different about whatever doesn't surprise me at least don't have to do store anymore at all just my drinks and maybe food if do it will be just baked potatoes 3 and sour cream cheese bacon crunchy items and salad ingredients and dressing that's it maybe eggs too also ice cream and one milk will see