again the sneaky evil behaviors from jp who knows what's going to happen next. guess I got to accept anything can happen when your dealing with devil actions and people. why is she still here God can't be for me then who? this whatever relationship it was is gone dead I'm only here cause I have no choice either here little house or camping in woods waiting before for an animal to get me and it never did she's not alive for me and I'm not for her at all so why do you keep stopping me from doing it I try just about all I can cause facing life when she is gone won't be any better. my neighbor RM was lucky she had a great mom all I got was a size of tiny bread crumbs kind of mom and dad they had a choice should have aborted me I would have preferred that all doing here is praying and suffering and praying and suffering everyday and night trying to hide the pain the punishment I have for myself the shame the mistakes and misunderstandings. guess more of that to you God I'm trying to hold on to survive but don't know here she asks an I going somewhere this nope not happening are you is what I said no answer I've ignored her since I n my 40 s and 50s what's new what other way are you going to do to me that you haven't already homeless for 2 months before emotional abuse neglect manipulation abandonment what else are these little devil persons going to do next I'm sure you know God please just keep them away from me she can be with them or whatever just don't let them talk to me or near me if they come in it's going to be a lot to get the evil out still trying to before when they were here and with jp too. also it's my. right if I don't want to talk to jp LG and BG I don't have to it's my choice. I don't have to talk to her jp either the only area I'm going is the little house the shed that's mine for sure you tried and tried to take everything else from me I at least get that will see if she continues to write check of 100 a month worse case which I expect is no then I'll be in this room never come out unless bathroom or shower that's it. I have lost my appetite and my sleep due to not understanding why I'm still alive on this earth or why jp is. they continue and continue to whisper about me or something really weird and sneaky like why would jp say you going somewhere tonight is someone coming that's a nope why would I have that I have no car no job no money no real family and no good homie if I had money or won the lottery I would not be here or come back it's evil here I keep trying to keep it away from me but it keeps happening and if I want to have just liquids I can it's my choice I think jp is one of those silence evil devil people who let someone else talk for her or do for her whatever and if you don't she tries and puts you on a guilt trip she knows not working with me I've had the worst done to me that's not a surprise it just feels the vibe right now and all seems trying to set me up catch me off guard what's going to happen next I expect the worst shocked by good we are completely done I want nothing to do with her ever again she's evil along with her 2 devil minions not sure what's going to happen if my bear since something isnt right. are you having me arrstd jail go be homeless again what the silence and sneaking whispering changing wills all the time if not getting her way like not here I definitely wouldn't have come back here if I had money for sure but I don't so I'm here or little house those 2 months homeless I am still sick from. no not going anywhere tonight only way I'm going is if I'm dead or jp that's it can't work she steals and throws away my stuff can't date Same thing can't have a real life she took that so I'll I have is my room it's mine and my little house shed that's it and maybe the life insurance I don't know probably trying to take that too. when if she never had me I would be better off then this. I don't trust her at all and she caused the issues of no trust not me like she has never stolen anything or being unstable but no judgement to her just me. God l give all these issues and problems with her you take it on I let it go