yucky Monday I don't like not wanna do much of anything make sure she calls on Tues 17rh the office of estate planning lwr to make sure it's all under my name and having a hard time to forgive a family member so called from doing this to me for not getting her way that's why I can't trust her ever again she has to go tomorrow with me to bank and when I go to get state id leaving her here alone with my stuff I don't trust her from not throwing something away it sucks one for even being here and still having to go into bank instead of doing it all at home I have thought gone from going to store to ordered on doordash hopefully still can do but may not food if don't get food stamps in August I don't know what I'll be doing right now I am still not happy with her mom in the estate planning will putting Chris and then bill and Linda and me not once changed never do that again it was heartless mean cruel it would mean id be back to homeless again which got me sicker not way I would want to die even if wasn't coming back she still should leave me something only doing this change cause I'm back here but Chris isn't here and she gave him all this house when I'm the one here not him I knew Chris is the one child she wanted not me just had to because of God wish I wasn't in this type of family but can't choose parents if could it wouldn't have been the ones I got would she have really left me 75 percent ML and son 25 and the life insurance I don't know it's not good and the relationship of mother and daughter friend closeness is gone never the same since she did what she did cause of loneliness and the misunderstanding mistake I made well I guess least left me something uh. I don't know anymore at least I'm not homeless now hopefully won't ever be again but if so Ill survive the best I can like I said didn't choose parents I got and says God doesn't make mistakes I'm trying to believe that but it's hard when daily I suffer from severe depression never goes away and what she did made it even worse there's nothing Chris can do that she wouldn't leave him something but me I was going to get nothing maybe life insurance but that was pretty much it until she added 25 percent to him and 75 percent me on ML so for that reasons alone I don't want to have anything really to do with her unless have to like check of 100 dollars each month and going to bank and to just go and get the state id card. since she did do what she did and proved that her son is better and gives him whatever when she passes no matter what the closeness we used to have will never be again just getting by and surviving she stays her area I mine and make sure that stupid will she started for estate changes and she never does this crap again it's mean cruel and not a loving caring mom by no means should have given me up for adoption period doesn't matter if she didn't sign those draft copies the fact she put it out there to do so is the issue I didn't ask to be here in this so called family but I am cause I have no one and no place to go or no money and barely have peace her asking always if I'm ok no I'm not never will be again till death just is