to me and I'm sure most everyone would say that you should treat both chicken equally and I'm not seeing that when I left I thought would be gone wasn't sure coming back even so CP isn't coming back but yet she still has him in the will looking like was the executor of the will for everything but when I came back it just seems like a mess someone you thought you trusted or could had you not on anything with the will only thing you get was life insurance that was it really that's why I'm decreasing any doing anything now she doesn't care if homeless or not she knows what she did trying to say sorry and that she has fixed it where I will get this house definitely the little house I will not become homeless again period I know if did I could survive but now I do sick more still because when I was it was hard very hard she caused that no one chooses to be homeless circumstances form that or a mother you thought cared loved and when never cause you to be in those circumstances but she did I'm not asking a lot just what I deserve for you having to have me and bring me in a world I don't want to be in took me out of her will cause she was lonely and didn't get what she wanted if it isn't here by first of next week she will need to call to tell them she wanted the updated will mailed to her where I am the one who gets the estate if not make sure it says that and ml account 75 percent CP 25 percent and life insurance those are the ones I want only don't care about power of attorney I just want to get my part of having to be here my life ruined and her having to have me and this bipolar depression that's has and is really eating me up inside I don't trust her or believe anything she says and I'm done with all will see about July 17 snap may not do it just save it for little items needed no more high on groceries or anything going no where doing nothing but staying in this room unless I have to have 2 documents printed and maybe a phone call after July 17 for seeing about august food stamps not sure if going to mail me document for recertify food stamps for August till whenever and same with forms fed stud. aid income driven repayment form and whatever other form needed to library only for that will check mail every day this week for that will updated if not received then tell them to mail it to her with most important me on the estate as primary I get the house only unless I die should be the only way someone else gets it. she put down CP and his kids if he doesn't live that showed me it would always be CP no matter what if doesn't have relationship with him he still would get it all except power of attorney that was BG and LG really I was only getting the life insurance seriously and some of that was for her cremation seriously so I don't trust her or ever will have any closeness ever again I deal with it now cause I have no where else to go except the little house which will always be mine. that is for sure so since she did that to me and it's hard to forgive and forget I do forgive cause God told me to but I need you God if you are still keeping me alive and don't understand why to make sure I I get the house, everything in it to sell and little house definitely mine that I won't be homeless again I have a hard time forgetting what she has done to me so I'm going slow and trying to not know what day it is to pass on by cause bday just reminds me that she shouldn't have had me she should have aborted or put up for adoption would have probably been better off these 2 weren't very good at all guess there's worse could be worse guess just here now at least who knows when she passes or me keep asking and wanting for me sooner than later oh well seems devil always here around her to try to destroy me even more that's why I need you God and the angels so I don't react or have to respond or do anything your take care of it please do cause what she has done to me it's a lot it's hard for me to forget and was very hard to forgive and her 2 family people too who are the devil like side kicks I won't nothing to do with any of them why do I have to do with this food stamps stuff she's the one that drink's most of the water and food cause I only eat 1 to 2 meals a day sometimes may not be any just liquids. cause I don't trust her that she would show me the final will documents I really don't trust her at all so I think I'll be like her now forget the days it is see how that goes ok I'm tired of getting up each day trying to survive and not knowing if devil is going to strike at me again cause didn't work before because I e given all this to God and if that will doesn't say me as executor of the estate only me gets the house and definitely little house no matter what then she'll call back and make sure it does and will continue till it does with ML account just want my fair share and completely the life insurance if not need to keep contacting them till it does it is the least she can do from ruined my life and made me sick worse from being homeless for about 2 months the will should have never changed period but she did it so she needs to correct it now first of next week and if not we have nothing to say to one another or do anything but I'm going to do that anyway after what's she's put me through and done no way I'm doing anything else she caused that not me .