she has already ruined my life could it get any worse yes and does I'm sure the devil always working I see now using so called family only one I have but to me I don't who punishes their own adult child by taking her off the will and leaving her nothing who does that it's seems work of the devil we'll go ahead cause God is stronger in me so she can keep on with it guess she will since I'm not dead yet guess she'll keep going she doesn't care if I end up and out live her which hopefully not all she cares about is her it's been that way since I've been an adult if it doesn't come out like she wants she does these kind of evil things and best way for me to handle it is detach it's the only way for peace she is very evil throwing away or getting rid of someone else's things that don't belong to you is wrong is evil I don't think she would like it if I went into her room and threw everything away of hers and she had nothing but the bed and dresser and shelf. I have my backup in case if I do live past her pop up tent blanket comforters little table for now I don't need her to touch that stuff but knowing her she would that is how she is evil devil in her out does God never thought I would see that but I do at least saving my EBT snap food stamps so I'll still have some past Aug in case cancels kind of hoping it does don't care to eat really anymore just water, ginger ale and Gatorade all I need but maybe I'll be weak and die. best I can do as of now is stay sick cannot do anymore things to the sick or that's signs of even more abuse I know abuse I have had pretty much in my adulthood mental, emotional abuse from parents and physical abuse from some relationships I had she's taking away all that to have a relationship good one to even work cause the mental illness is so bad she's made it a lot worse it's just bad never thought someone who said would not let you ever be homeless again you will be taking care of when she passes in or to nursing home but see that as just a lie everything she has said or done to me since I've been in my home has been lies I will not be caught off guard though if the will document is not mailed by the middle of next week she will need to call both back and have it mailed the ones with the estate I don't care about power of attorney I just want the estate and my part of her ML account if it doesn't say that then she will need to call and correct it and have it mailed again it's ridiculous and her mean cruel self would cause me so much pain but now I feel nothing I've felt so much through the years now I don't feel anything not even hate wish I could hate but don't I do though will never understand why God put me here and that I am not a mistake because actions shown to me shows that I am again God i leave it all to you. if I do need food or water, drinks it will only be for me from now on starting in July and I rather just skip birthday just a reminder had to be born wish wasn't and older. well good luck to me am I outliving her or she going to outlive me God which is it hopefully it's me cause you know what she's done changing will cutting me off it so if you are keeping her here for me cause I don't know what else could be and if you are make sure I get this estate and my part of the ML what I deserve in just being born to her she had to have and keep me she couldn't put me up for adoption or abortion I would probably been better off than this living with someone who has become more towards the devil ways don't see God in her anywhere I think that was main reason she no church anymore no relationship with family anymore no nothing I see. she should be where I am at since she. has caused me here or one of ways why I'm here and my life is what it is just basically surviving and survival skills since I've been homeless several times mainly from her. she doesn't care at all of when she goes im if still alive having to be homeless survival skills all over again or maybe sooner who knows she has devil ways in her that's why too I'm detaching from her evil vibes I feel very strongly if she doesn't show and I keep the original or copy of will updated then there's no reason to talk or anything just keep to detach I unlike her don't care if I'm alone I like it better no one can hurt or bother you or trying to destroy you so much like she keeps doing and I don't believe she's finished yet so this is to God are you keeping her here for me to make sure I have enough from the will to live off with or what cause if that isn't it then don't know why she still here to keep destroying my life I think she's done that already enough just be with me God protect me make sure I get my part in this stupid will which is the estate and my 75 percent of money left don't care about power of attorney just want the 2 things I said that I deserve just for being here this house my room and little house only reason why I am here not for her at all she is part of devil and his ways cause God would never do this or nanny would never do this take someone out of a will that you decided to bring in this world I should get more because I had to put up and deal with your evil devil ways if your keeping her here to make sure she gives me my fair amount of what's left then please do that fix so it will be if not then no reason to do so it's been like a game she continues to play and try to destroy me but what she doesn't get is I already am you did it not me