it seems ignored and forgot my bday whatever doesn't surprise me say nothing feel nothing only way to get through the crap that I have had to deal with since a teenager the emotional and neglect abuse and manipulation and abandonment got worse as an adult no life job relationship friends money just here till I die or she does. I feel like I'm dying every day but apparently God does not want me to I guess what for don't know it isn't for this so called biological mother for sure it can't be after taking everything from me no estate except Little house seems like no ML account either just whatever to keep me homeless again so no talking no nothing except the 100 a month and she has to go with me to bank and when I get state id if I live that long not sure. I didn't deserve it no matter what due to fact she did decide to have me who does that really take everything from someone and leave them only life insurance and the little house. no here she will keep trying then saying sorry but like that motivation speaker says it's a way the toxic person does to still be able to keep taking and taking and taking till you have absolutely nothing but they seem to forget I have God Jesus and Angels guess I'll be here till she or I die which I hope to first cause she has caused a lot of damage with her 2 people devil people all acting taking everything from me that's why I just am numb feel nothing inside due to damage and broken that was done by someone who you thought never would guess if done by so called mother only if call it family left then what does it matter when anyone else treats you horribly seems like deserve it. the thing I don't get is all these crappy people who judge me call me names for instance unstable and a thief when she's done and acted like unstable too but just blaming hers actually on old age that I was talking advantage of her she. actually she has me. so what next those 2 people who have called me names and is evil coming here or what jl time or more homeless again what will happen cause I expect the worst cause that's what's happening but I notice that when I don't speak or care at all seems she doesn't seem to like that or what else she'll go and do like nursing home and sell house and I should get my part but knowing her she rather punish me is what it is hopefully I'll die before her and I won't have to face again the homeless times the jl time if they try to do that or throw me away like done before no one chooses to be homeless it is circumstances that caused it and it did me in my car for about 1 month or 2 months and then not in car some I'm hotel money I had left for 2 months there then in woods with a chair and 2 blankets trying to be a fort at time now I have to save to be in camping tent and get sleeping bag and sleeping pad and backpack. guess I should get used to that to Happening I don't see anything changing not tomorrow either guess that would be my life or any life if call it that wow. it's in God's hands now not me but I will never talk to her again or do anything again I'm completely done not using me anymore take care of each other ha that's a joke

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