i dont trust or believe anything had been said that's why I have to always have bk. up. why can't I pass away go to sleep and never wake up again it's so bad and so hard to even try to stay alive in this awful awful world that she could have aborted me or adoption she said she wanted me how has any of that show that since in 40s 50s and teenager time where is the not abandonment from homeless 3 times looks like could be 4th when passes no wonder I'm all messed up been homeless nothing I have nothing already period how much more are you going to keep me suffering when I've punished myself already no need to keep doing so she had me she should leave me my part that simple but no has to make it so hard for me I can't work I hardly sleep or really eat mainly the sleep cause of the emotional abuse neglect abandonment manipulation how is any of this life I have no one or nothing who just makes and doesn't care that a mother's own daughter keeps becoming homeless cause what she did even got Diane here at one time at 6 pm I looked and saw I know what she drives trying to make sure I I leave and just doesn't care I've been a lot sicker because of all the homeless situations she has lied stolen and has been showing some unstable times but no it's all me bipolar depression doesn't matter old age is accepted really I did nothing to make her do anything I just want my part in ML and all the house or why am I still here and alive. only one sided the truth is in the middle and it isn't the mother told it or LG and BG says and DF don't have the full truth at all so who would talk to someone like that or do anything it's ridiculous and I'm not I'm done cause enough is enough to keep baring this when I just want to sleep and never wake up period just hoping it's going to happen please God