here I still am alive when I just rather not be. I have nothing guess when you came into this world with nothing then leaving this world the same way it is what it is it gets harder and harder knowing the only family you have has betrayed you and caused no trust at all because what happened to me when I was homel.
I just still feel I'm hanging on by a thread only for my kosla bear stuffed animal and any money I'll receive when mother passes and especially this house I feel that would even be worse for me especially when you've been betrayed and have no trust especially in my mom's brother and her sister in law don't want them anywhere near me or this house after what they have treated me by calling me unstable lying and telling me to shut up and has had enough of me when I mind my own business and ignored them seems they just kept coming for me but God knows and protected me for any bad vibes and evil in LG trying to get to put my mother in a nursing home but now that I'm here she seems to decrease that may God be with in every struggle pain or when at peace I need it just to pull through in this bad world