well today is mother's day which i would just rather skip this day altogether as well as any holiday for that matter it's very depressing. I still resent her for causing me partly her fault when I was homeless pain, hurt, uncertainty just barely trying to hang on and it's so hard and she saying help each other I can't even help me I lost me during homeless time today she'll probably make her all about her even more like she does on all days I'm done with fighting to survive now it is what it is to happen to me I'm staying right in here till this evening napping not coming out of here it's best for me to do so. leave me alone everyone I'm not well I'm only worse barely hanging on. I don't have money for rides or anything or a car or another place I'm stuck here till death of one of us. I don't understand why God keeps having her here, she has not been understanding compassionate at all about this mental disease that I'm very sick and neither has her family I hear and get opinions about it all the time. where's the son you so love the most and wanted like your husband Don't see him here nope just me stuck here ruined any life could have had. no dating no job no friends and really no family a family doesn't judge doesn't say what should do or snap out of it take pills see a shrink done that doesn't work same with motels I've tried all of it still didn't work and back here isnt either I'm waiting on my death that is never seem to come I just don't want to get out of bed I just want to stay right here. but have to wash my sheet. and spray the white one every Sunday then back to bed. I don't feel bad I gave what I could and card and that's on her not me. I'll probably get nothing which is fine. I am nothing God says I'm not a mistake but it feels everyday I am which is why I survived homeless if have to I would again in pop up tent but God doesn't want me to. but why send me back here don't get it it's depressing here too maybe no where it's not cause that's what I fight with inside every day just to hang on and survive

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