well looks like I'm still here when will I not be here.

All of those 4 people she said she would call I don't see them here at  all and yet she still isn't nice to me cares and takes care of me reason I'm in this is some because of her or mostly I would say because there's no realness seems too I feel out to get and if I don't do store or walk it seems it's just a different treatment seems always been that way but I'm sorry I'm facing a very bad mental depression suffering everyday just to get out of bed to get a little breakfast and a drink or coffee and same with dinner when I just want to curl up in my bed go to sleep and never wake up again. It's a very bad day today I would really just want to be left alone. My headache is really bad today on Monday May 12. Looks like late on spectrum bill why would it be 500 dollars and change wow. Hopefully not late again cause have to have that till death and this phone and unfortunately the state id either in Dec end 2025 or in Jan or Feb as long as not holidays. When depression so bad you don't want any holidays and that's where I am at. But seems don't get it at all. The instant coffee sucks see if I can do something with the coffee maker who knows she's always breaking stuff