says on you tube from a motivational speaker I listened to last night that when you feel manipulated, gaslighting, used, out to get you, everyone against you saying they did this to me or said this to me do nothing do nothing she said and that's what I'm trying to do it's hard, and now too I am not feeling anything no feelings cause when I do that seems to be what they prey on use on me with. im saving my money for extended stay place whenever I have to go there if I am still alive when she dies hopefully God won't let her if she goes to nursing home and sells house I get half of the sale of the house I lived and live here too or she'll have someone move the storage house away from property that is mine now I fixed it up for now it's my little day house to hang in there sometimes after walks. and I'm saving for pop up tent at Walmart or academy sports store for if camping again under the trees under somewhat pavement. also an aunt Linda and Bill apologized to me and Mom due to God's work which I do trust but is it sincere and for real the apologies?I am not positively sure, does she talk about me behind my back my own mother am I here because for her not to sell house or go into nursing home? or does God want me here. being homeless camping was hard surviving. just no shower or bed or cool area or food to cook its just snacks. and I'll be 55 in June 29 5 years from 60 will I make it that far