hopefully nothing suspicious or set up in the la. happening cause all that thought has been worked out. but who knows when your a mistake is what it is. never wanted to be here and fighting to stay alive for God and whatever he wants to do with me in his hands not mine but it's hard so hard to try and help someone else out when your just trying to survive and hang on when all the dreaming is how to leave this terrible world pain free. making me feel or trying to make me feel guilty sad not helping when I'm the one that needs the understanding compassion and seems to be about always whats best for them there not fighting to stay alive I am