now to journal about me, my alone life

I know now I was set up she acted like didn't know but did she should take part at fault apologize but no one apologized to me made me feelore isolated alone and a mistake I don't know where I'm going or where I'll be I'm scared alone frightened and not sure if or where I'm going to die at I don't and can't make it knowing how I have to get all this id stuff birth certificate it's alot. Especially when you don't drive anymore or using for trip overseas not going anywhere don't get it I'm alone hardly no more money and I'm scared living in a tent probably soon no nothing not sure even God anymore is with me but must be if I'm still alive which I don't want to be. So scared need God more than ever now will I be in a homeless place or a tent or volunteer in a homeless place. It's hard and very scary. Will they help me with this id if get homeless.and no address to mail id that is permanent I cannot go back to a place I feel unwanted mistake even more set up like a criminal. Hopefully it won't be long for me it's getting so exhausting interview applying knowledge is probably won't get cause no car. But I had no choice couldn't pay all a car requires. Now still dealing with this ID crap.  I don't know if I'm going to live by my 55 birthday. A pill to take to have me and why those people no one grew up in my household so don't know 

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