is this a joke or for real, being set up again or what something to think about will I be treated bad again like a criminal or trash or mistake why I left in the first place don't understand why God wants me to go back and deal and face it only family have right now not forever he says. he says no set ups or any of that he will make sure and says taking care of me and this made a mistake just really learn from it. my whole life pretty much relationships been touch and go whether with abuse I went through and now and before more than ever family or just one so to speak.

Am I really being missed and seems says same things over and over not really apologize for not understanding or talk to me not all with them. Don't seem to get it I'm dying inside and out doesn't seem to be going away and all you want is like 3 days a week walking 

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